Well I had several plans for my summer. My plan A was to apply for jobs around spring break and hopefully have a part-time job that could become a full-time job during the summer, or maybe take a second part-time job if that didn't work out. I would live with several awesome girls from res and live right across from Walmart (yah!). Then I found out that I had to have my wisdom teeth out sometime in the early summer, my parents didn't want me to get a job during the school year (I needed to focus more on my studies, and they definitely right in this area) and they wanted me to come home for the summer.
Okay, so that plan didn't turn out. So I cam home and waited a couple weeks for my appointment with the dentist, I applied for about 20 jobs. Because it suddenly appeared as an option and my parents felt a bit better about it, I applied for a couple jobs on the Island where we used to live. One was at Butchart Gardens where one of my good friends worked, we thought that I might be able to live with her, but her family was downsizing their house and their grandparents were moving in so that was out of the question.
Next option: About 4 years ago my mom, sister and I all got jobs at this gorgeous organic blueberry farm. My mom suggest that I try to apply there again. Some reason feeling that this is what I needed to do I promptly googled the farm and emailed them. I got a quick response saying that they did have job openings. I then sent several questions about the job, pay and perhaps a place to stay and then.....heard nothing. Plan C was dead.
Plan D? My boyfriend was working in Edmonton at a job that was a little rough but it paid really well and they were looking for more workers and since his dad was connected with the company chances of me getting a job would be high. Now being a young girl in a city my parents thought it would be wise to either go with my sister or a friend. My friend just so happened was able to get a job volunteering with some vets and since it was something that would help her work towards her career I was happy for her and it was okay that she decided to not go. My sister pretty much was already accepted to be a paid worker at a summer camp, which she would enjoy much more then being stuck in Edmonton working. So part 3 of plan D? Find a place for me to stay on my own....only not on my own really because it just isn't that sensible for a young girl/women to be so close to her boyfriend of only a couple short months....not to mention having my own place...but then I don't want to live too far away from him in case someone follows me home or I have creepy landlords :P.....compromise? none to be found, at least not smart or reasonable ones!
Here I thought that my summer was not going to work out and then guess what! Plan C suddenly popped into the picture again! I was able to secure the job, and a place to stay with my old neighbors for really cheap! It was all looking super good until a couple hours ago. The job won't start for 2 months. And since it is only about a 7 week job (that still pays well) it throws a money wrench into the only part of the summer that I had really planned out and was hoping to fulfill. I was going to work until mid-August, go to E-town for a couple days (West Ed Mall here I come!), volunteer at a camp for a week with my boyfriend and leave for Calgary a week and a half early to get settled into the big city groove and hang with friends. So if I was to continue on with the plan I would only get about 4 weeks of work in and that isn't nearly enough to make it worth while.
Am I disappointed? Yes. Frustrated? Definitely was on Saturday. Now? Right now I am just wondering if God had been doing this all to me to try to teach me a lesson.....one that I had thought I learned a while back but I obviously haven't since I just realized it. I need to remember that yes, I can make plans but in the end I have to be willing to let those plans be led by God. Maybe if I had asked for God's advice and guidance before I wouldn't be so frustrated with how my summer has been going so far and maybe things would be making a lot more sense.
I know that my plans are not always God's plans and sometimes I hate that but my plans have been failing pretty much since plan A. Some may say that its because my parents have said this, that, and the other thing and because I am now a legal adult in both BC and Alberta I can make my own choices. But I greatly value my parents opinions, and as much as I sometimes don't like to admit it, they make great points and are often right, not to mention I wholeheartedly believe in honouring my parents and that God often speaks to us through other people in our lives. So personally that's not the issue here.
So God, if your reading this...I have learned my lesson. I am gonna stop trying to be a control freak with my summer, here I am now, taking a deep breathe and shakily opening my heart, mind and soul for your guidance.
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