Procrastination

So it is 2:26am as I sit here writing this blog post for you all. Just another way of me procrastinating. So far I have completed two exams last week, one which I am very disappointed in and the other was okay. Then today, or technically yesterday I completed two more exams, one at 4:00pm and one at 6:30pm. And guess what! I have another exam at 9:45am! So what am I still doing up? I am studying...or pretending to at least.

After my last exam of the day I took a break and chilled, meaning eating a toasted bagel with cream cheese and strawberry jam and cuddling with my boyfriend. And then I pretended to study while surfing the net until floor meeting. After floor meeting there was 15 more minutes of cuddle time before curfew where I did some more internet stuff, saved all the documents I wanted to read for my history exam tomorrow. I then set about trying on my Halloween costume, after roping my roommate into doing the same, I finished up an energy drink as I tidied up a bit and then once again attempting to study I showed my wonderful roommate, Kathryn a bunch of videos from my first year at University. And so I have wound up here.....but honestly....how am I supposed to study?! I have already studied so much my head may explode....actually I think it may already have and now it is like a deflated balloon.....I can't fill it again. Yay for History that requires a lot of memorization. Oh well, I'm not tired so I will still get a good amount of studying in (too bad I'm a bit sick....thanks roommate...I had given it to you for a reason!). Actually I doubt I will sleep tonight, I may have to drink some Orange Pekoe tea (my favorite) or maybe another energy drink (my second full one in my life! within 5hours!) but at least my head will contain some knowledge that will be gone by 11am tomorrow!

So how are your exams going? How do you study?

Quirky

I am quirky...or at least thats what I like to call my self. I am not weird or crazy, I'm just quirky. Random little things make me ridiculously happy, like blowing bubbles, biking through puddles and guess what? Scrubbing floors. I love to scrub, not mop, scrub, floors. I don't know what is so thrilling and exciting about getting down on my knees with a rag and a bucket of warm soapy water but I just love it.

Another quirk, there are certain times of night where I can't control my tongue. For example my boyfriend Jesse often phones me early in the morning as he walks to work and usually I am able to form coherent sentences and have an actual conversation....but sometimes I am not. Take last night for instance. I wasn't able to sleep so I watched Mamma Mia (which I loved by the way!) for the second time in the past couple days, on my laptop, talked to Jesse for the first time and then went to bed.....the second and third times he called I was so tired that I lost control of my tongue and started talking about random things from the movie that I had watched, the second time realizing part way through what was going on and spent about 3 minutes trying to shut myself up before I embarrassed myself further.

I also have this bad habit of not being able to remember sayings and metaphors once telling my sister that she was "off her cracker" instead of off her rocker and that she'd be the life of me instead of the death of me.

I have many other little quirks that just add to who I am. Yes, perhaps I am a crazy but you know what, I am unique and I'd like to see you try to make a copy of me...actually no I wouldn't, that might be a bit scary......

So what are some quirks that you have? What makes you unique?

I Lost My Wisdom....

...teeth. Well actually I didn't loose them I had them pulled out. It was actually very nice. I must admit I was not a fan of the fact that my wisdom teeth were coming out but because they were starting to get infected where they had not yet surfaced (part of all four had pierced through my gums) and some were actually starting to wear away at my jaw bone.

I used to joke with my friends who would tell me that I would most likely be awake while they pulled my wisdom teeth that I would put up a bit enough fight that they would HAVE to knock me out to pull them out but thankfully I didn't have to go through with it because I was knocked out for the event.

Heading into the office I was asked to lay down. I was given an IV, and due to my experience (ahem, one time) in giving blood the IV was no biggie for me......and then I had a clip on my finger to measure my heart rate and given an oxygen tube.

After sitting in the chair for a while the doctor came in and with a "Goodnight Irene" put a needle (or two) into my IV. I waited a couple minutes and nothing seemed to happen and then next thing I know I was opening the door of my dad's car back at home....Whoa! I totally forgot getting out of the chair...leaving the building, by a different way too so I wouldn't fall down 3 floors worth of stairs or my dad driving me home!

But besides that I am happy to say that now, over 12hrs later I still feel no pain (yay for pain meds!), the freezing is gone and I am looking forward to eating more icecream and pudding tomorrow :D

So do you remember what your wisdom teeth experience was like? If you were put out for it do you remember waking up or anything after it?

Letting Go Just To Hold On

Sometimes, when you hold tight you onto something instead of being able to keep it you end up losing it because your grip was to strong. Sometimes you actually have to let go of it to be able to keep it.

There is something that I need to let go of so that I can keep something special to me, but sometimes it is hard, it is hard to let go.

So are you holding onto something that you need to let go of?

WHY?

Time for another midnight posting. Yes I know it is not midnight right now but in Alberta (my second home) it almost is and I feel like it is midnight and once again my thoughts are going deep.

Why? Why do we think so much? Like I know that we have brains and thinking is good, but is is possible to think to much? IS there such a think as over-analyzing something and at what point is it healthy to think about something and at what point does it become over-analyzing?

Maybe I am just a tad prejudiced about thinking because it is not something that I do much - I mean not something that do it purposefully just for fun. I don't see the point in philosophizing about the finer points of life or debating about minor (or major) details. I don't know why we have to know everything about how the world works, how life exists and why. I understand that some of this is good and that perhaps most of it is good but have we gone to far in trying to figure out the structure of the universe?

Is ignorance bliss? and is okay to be ignorant? Is it weird to know that you are ignorant and like it? I know that I am ignorant of many things, and some of those things I am happy that I don't know a ton about.

Maybe I am thinking too deep again...maybe that's why I have a headache (or maybe it is just a cold that I am catching)....

So what do you think about philosophy? And am I making any sense (and do I ever make any sense?)?

Midnight Musings

So since coming to University/College I haven't had too many early nights...most have been quite late actually but then most of them have been worth it as I make new friends and grow closer to others. I also find that late at night is the time that I end up thinking the most...or at least I think very deeply at these times. Now whether this is a good thing or not I have yet to find out but since I can still wake up in time to get ready and be on time for classes I am okay with my late night musings for now.

What has struck and stuck to me more and more lately is how complicated life actually is. As the intelligent humans that we are (or assume to be), we try to simplify everything in life. Yet there is not always a certain "Yes" or "No" to every question or situation that arises and sometimes there may be no right answer...or maybe there is no wrong answer. What do you do in that kind of situation...I wonder.

Another thing that often pops into my mind these late nights is how little I know. Yes I am a teenager, a young adult who is admitting that I don't know everything (drat). and no matter how much I study, how long I attend school, there will always be something I do not know. For example I have done at least 12, yes at LEAST 12 years, of bible studies both with my family and on my own yet even after these many years it astounds me how little I actually know about the Bible...how can you fit so much knowledge into one little (depending on the size of your Bible that is) book? Will I ever be able to understand everything? Most likely not...but is it even possible? I wonder.....

So what do you think about late at night?

Ashley