Where Was I.....

Now my last blog post about what was happening in my life happened during midterms of last semester and in about 3 weeks I will be starting up midterms once again. Both a lot and little has changed since that point, if that makes any sense. And so this post will be about school.

So I did fairly moderate on all my midterms and continued to finish last semester with a "A", "B", "C+", "D+", "F" and a "W", which pretty much covered all the letter grades if you do not take into account + and -. A was for Choir which the only way to get a bad grade is not to show up. Surprisingly I passed my dreaded philosophy course with a D+ something I did not expect to pass. Now I was trying my hardest but I am anything but a philosopher as I am sure a few of my friends will agree, so passing this course was a huge surprise. The one course that I did fail, and can I say that it is the first University Course I have failed, was History to the 1500's. Parts of this class I found riveting while others almost had me falling asleep in my chair. Due to the large amounts of writing and unfortunately the hated having to memorize things I didn't fair to well on the final. Of course getting my second lit review all messed up may have attributed to it (Although I did a good job on it....). As for the W I chose to withdraw from the course to make it (a) easier on the rest of my work and (c) it was the final day to drop the course and I was NOT understanding anything (and I didn't miss a single class!).

So what do I have planned for this semester? A couple English classes, as well as a couple Choirs and a Discipleship and Mentoring course. While I love my school and the people in it I am not 100% happy with my program and the courses that they have to offer and so I have decided to take my ECE (early childhood education) certificate starting next year. I love little kids and since it will be a long time before I have any of my own why not take care of others? Unfortunately the College I was going to take the course at no longer offers the course so I either have to take it at a different campus somewhere else (Vancouver perhaps?) or take the 4 year course out here. So which will it be? I must say I'm tempted to take distant one because I can get the same piece of paper for half the amount of time it will take doing the course out here.

So how is school going for you?

Dear Diary....

Now I only have 10 official followers and since I haven't been keeping up to date on this here blog I don't even know how many of them actually read this regularly. But the more I think about it at the rate I'm going at this blog almost seems like a journal or diary.

Remember when you were a kid, mostly likely the girls will associate with this one better then the others, and you had a diary? I remember my first diary. I got it from my aunt (along with this gorgeous strawberry bubble bath) and it was hot pink and fuzzy. I only wrote in it an average once a year and I think I may still have the pages around here somewhere....as my roommate from last year can tell you, I like to hoard things.

As I got older I started a prayer journal that I kept up steady for at least a year. At first it was just me writing down the Lord's Prayer and the 'Now I lay me down to sleep' poem, but as weeks progressed I started to add my own personal thoughts. Eventually it was a journal that I used to talk about the good times and the bad times, but mostly the bad times. Things that were frustrating or stressing me out, who I was hopelessly in love with (and by that I mean that it was hopeless), who made me angry, cry or laugh. After I filled up a book I would through it out. It was my way of committing everything that I wrote to God. Sure it may have been cool to look back on it someday and reread everything but if I recall correctly it mostly consisted of me when I was upset. Over time I have learned to bring both the good and the bad the God and perhaps journaling would be a good thing to start up again.

Well now you know a bit more about the inner me, something that not many people know but also something I hope to slowly change.

Hopefully I can catch you up to where I am in my life currently and keep you interested at the same time. So did you every have a diary or journal? What did you use it for?

Stable Unstability

Due to the lack of internet connection and time I have not been able to keep up-to-date on my lovely blog here even though I have had many that I would have loved to write. But finally I am in the midst of unpacking my room in residence, preparing for my second year of University and finally adding some stability to my life.

Over this summer I have done a fair amount of traveling, spent multiple nights in several different places, even settle down in several places for a while...only to have to get up, move and have to settle down again. And over the course of this summer I have finally discovered that I actually NEED some source of stability in order to survive.

I made many good memories and had a lot of fun throughout the summer but for some reason....as I lay on my bed writing this post....all I can really think about was how stressful and tiring this summer was.

Now time to start school...and for some reason I feel that it might be more relaxing then the summer even though I am taking 5 courses, 1 lab and choir each semester.

When I Was a Kid...

Pluto was actually a planet

Oreo's only had one flavour (what's with the vanilla?)

All meals were bought and made by mom

Popcorn came only two ways, salted or plain, no fancy flavourings

My hardest decision was which friend was going to come over for a sleepover

$20 as a birthday or Christmas present made me the richest person in the world

We played cassette tapes and had tape recorders, none of these cds, mp3 players or ipods

There was no such thing as blue-ray or dvd’s, just video tapes

We played hopscotch, hula-hoop, jump-rope and actually played baseball instead of using a Wii, playstation, gamecube etc.

We used film in our cameras instead of digital...one chance was all you got and then you’d have to hope you got a good shot

No one worried weather Ernie and Bert were gay...they were brothers or close friends on a permanent sleepover

When I was a kid the world was simple and innocent, much like my life.....so can you remember some of what life was like when you were a kid? How has it changed?

Family

My oldest sister Tara has been visiting us over the past couple weeks and it has been wonderful! I have really missed her since I haven't seen her in over a year. Having a sisters that range from the 17-39 and a family that moves a lot we tend to leave a sister behind once in a while and while they usually come home for Christmas at least it has been hard for them to come out the past couple years as they both have pets and Tara spends and cooks Christmas dinner for her boyfriend and his grandmother.

Finally seeing my oldest sister makes me wish that I had spent more time with her when I could have and gotten closer to all my sisters. So I have decided that while I am in Calgary I am going to do what I can to occasionally make a trip out to visit her as well as make more of an effort to get closer to the rest of my sisters. Family is important to me, but it seems lately they have been taking second, third, or even fourth place in my life. I don't want to wake up one morning and find that I no longer have that family or have grown so far apart from them that it's like they are gone.

So how is your relationship with your family thriving?

Changes

Well it is only the second month of the new year and already so many of my plans and different aspects of my life has changed. Some of it has brought tears and frustration, some of it has brought smiles and laughter and some of it has brought both.

To summarize briefly, I broke up with the first boyfriend that I ever had and had been dating via long distance for 5 months, decided to stay out in Calgary for the summer (if I can find a job and actually start to earn some money) as well as maybe work at a camp out here, decided to make a program change (but to what I am not sure yet) and I started to date a guy out here. And everything that has been changing in my life I have felt that it has been a total God thing.

My former relationship was with a great guy with a great heart and love for the Lord and others but it was not where I was supposed to be and I was not able to handle the distance with so short of time that we had been dating and the personality that I have.

If God opens up a job out here for me it will just be further proof that this is where I should be as I already might have several friends who would be willing to rent a house with me this summer and the next school year, or I can just stay in res for cheap! I can also get paid to work up at a camp near here and the neat thing is that the camp is situated on a lake that I used to go to with my family when I was a kid.

I really feel called to stay at this school but I want to get started on a career so am going to change programs and have started a series of meetings with the career counselor here.

And my newest relationship, well I knew Jesse a bit last semester as we were in a group together for a school Halloween party and went to church together but this semester we really started to hang out together and he was really supportive and always there to listen and talk to, as well as give good Godly advice as I thought about school and my life and before you knew it we started dating and I feel that this is a good thing for me.

My life is still changing and most likely will continue to change and will always be changing. I just need to remember to incorporate God into these changes and hopefully they will be for the better and not for the worst. I need to make sure that I am opening my life up to the changes that God has in store for me and be willing to surrender everything that I have into his hands.

So what changes have you been experiencing in 2010?