Random....

I must say that I love doing fun quizzes and surveys....Yes I am wierd. But then it is a fun way to find out more about yourself and let others know more about you are. I stole this from a friends blog (hope you don't mind Katelyn!) and here is me!

Will you be single over summer?
Nope! Doing the long distance summer thing....its been two weeks and already I miss my boy so much. Yes i am pathetic, I know it and am not afraid to admit is

Do you remember the first time you kissed the last person you kissed?
Well the last person I kissed was my mother so the answer to that would have to be no.

Is there someone you want to fight?
Andrew Love! We still need our fight to the death.....

Where do you wanna live when you grow up?
Athens....I love that city....or maybe some place close to home...Or Calgary....Or an acreage on Vancouver Island...Or Vancouver sounds cool.......

Where is the person who has your heart at the moment?
In Edmonton....way too far away for my liking

Would you date someone three years older than you?
Yes I would....although I have never dated anyone older then me (in my defense I have only ever dated twice and they have been less then a year younger then me!)

Would you get married if you could right now?
Yes I would :D

Do you consider yourself spoiled?
Spoiled but not spoiled rotten as I like to say!

Would you rather have your parents catch you having sex or smoking weed?
as a pastors daughter I would have to say neither.....both sound like bad ideas to be caught doing...or doing in general

Who were you last on the phone with?
Tara! My big sis!

Would you ever take someone back after they cheated on you?
Probably not.....only if I knew I could trust them and that they had changed and learned a lesson

Do you miss your past?
Some of it....We all have mistakes that we have made that we'd rather not relive but then I have had many great experiences and memories that I have loved and miss....it happens when you move an average of every 3 years

Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
My mom? Yup! I love my mommy!

Ever been kissed by someone whose name starts with an R?
Hmmm.....Nope

Could you see yourself dropping out of High School?
Thankfully I have finished highschool and didn't drop out....and I don't think I could....

Would you ever get a tattoo?
Maybe...but it would have to have a really special meaning to it...and most likely would not be very big or noticeable...and I might pass out while getting it.....

Are you a different person now than you were 5 years ago?
Most definitely

Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette?
I have never smoked so I would say I could

Who was the first person you talked to today?
Jesse! if online counts....otherwise it was my mother...Had a wonderful talk with my mom all morning

How was your weekend?
Okay....could have been better but what can you say after getting wisdom teeth out, taking pain killers, and trying to sort out jobs and living conditions as well as hang time with family, friends as well as that special someone?

What did you do yesterday?
Chilled...

Are you a mean person?
I would say no....I hope you think so....

According to your ex, are you a bitch?
I would say no

Do you ever get "good morning" texts from anyone?
Yes..I get "good morning beautiful" texts almost every morning.....

Where is your cell phone?
beside my bed which I am on

Who last texted you?
Jesse Schmidt

Have you done any thing embarrassing lately?
Not that I am aware of...

Are you a bad influence?
I think I am a good influence...unless my crazy and quirky ways around my friends can be considered to be a bad influence.... :D

Has anyone ever called you baby?
I don't think so....

Who was the last person you took a picture with?
Hmmmm....I think Jesse

Will you be up before 7 am tomorrow?
Only long enough to swallow a painkiller pill for my missing wisdom teeth

What is something you disliked about your day?
The fact that I have no idea when my job will start and if I will be seeing much of my family, friends or boyfriend this summer

Did you date anyone last summer?
Not really..I started dating about 2 weeks before summer was over.

Do you hate being alone?
Sometimes...I love being with people that I love but sometimes I just need some private time

What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
same thing as now...blogging in bed

Excited for anything?
My sister coming home from a weekend away, finding out when I start my job and sorting out holidays and days off.

Have you ever dated the same person twice?
Nope...Considering there has only ever been 2 guys over about 8 months

Who was the last person to make you laugh?
My sister....she can make me laugh even through texts....

Did anyone yell at you out of a window today?
Nope

Did you have a good day yesterday?
Nope, frustrating day with painkillers, emotions, and jobs and housing, or lack of it

Did you fall asleep in someones arms last night?
Nope

Whats the next big life decision you will have to make?

Where to work and live for the summer

Do you want to please everyone?
Often...but I am getting better at that

How many people have you hugged in the past week?
about 4 differnt people...home is so much more quiet then at school....

Is there anyone who doesn't like you?
Most likely.....sadly

Do you laugh a lot?
I'd say so!

Do you believe ex's can be friends?
Yes

What are you craving at the moment?
Shrimp, Pad Thia, mashed turnip with butter, pepper and salt, ham....real food. Icecream and pudding are fun but after a few days you start to miss real food

Are you in a good mood right now?
Yes

Who can always cheer you up?
My little sis or Boyfriend

Did you wake up in the middle of the night last night?
Yes

Who was the last person you sat on the couch with?
hmmm....my best friend I think

What is bothering you right now?
Not knowing the detail of my summer..and its already several weeks into it!!

Did you take a nap today?
kinda....didn't sleep but chilled

Do you think you would be able to handle being in the military?
I think so!! :D

Would you rather have the ability to fly or the ability to read minds?
Read minds...but then be able to turn it off it I wanted to...otherwise fly

Last place you held someone’s hand?
Greyhound Bus stop

Would you date someone who lived in another province?
I am

Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate?
If you mean a friend then Yes, if you mean love then No. Not all people were meant to Marry (such as Paul in the Bible)

Missing You

So I haven't been updating my blog a lot lately but with my wisdom teeth putting me outta commission temporarily I have some free time. I have finished my second semester and first year at University. And in retrospect I have had a wonderful year.

Hightlights would consist of:

• Building Snowmen - my fun friend Michelle and I had fun in the snow and built a handsome snowman, unfortunately he was drop-kicked and destroyed (which kinda looked cool but when you spend several hrs working on a master piece you don't want to see it destroyed right after) but a bunch of our awesome floor brothers helped us recreate him. A while later Michelle, Heidi and Andrew K. and I all make a huge snow woman who must have been about 9feet tall. Andrew, who was tall had to stand on a chair and stretch to fit the head on. Lots of fun in the snow!
• Christmas Banquet - while I didn't go with a date I went with some awesome friends and the theme of the banquet was awesome! It was a Maquerade! Like from phantom of the Opera! I had fun with it and made my own dress (which was technically an assignment for my Theatre Class) and a cool matching mask. The food was awesome and the entertainment was entertaining!
• LotR- Yes I watched Lord of the Rings for the first time in my life as well as several other movies that I have never seen and people are shocked to hear that...and there are many movies to go...any suggestions?
• Boyfriend - definitely a highlight, I started dating this guy who is commonly known as Pajama Boy for wearing pajama pants to school. He is also known to be one of the kindest guys you will ever meet and is just a sweetheart. I have also found out that he is a very fast runner and will follow through with his threats...the reason I have been thrown into a snowbank about 3 times....I guess I might have deserved it.....
  
• Brother - I got a brother this year! Being 1 of 4 daughter I have no brothers but was adopted by Andrew Love as his little sister...who is only a couple months younger then him. He scolds me when he needs to, we have fun coffee times, are still planning a fight to the death (him being a vampire and me being a werewolf and all [previous blog post explains that]) and I make him laugh and give into almost anything with my cutsie girl act (why doesn't this work on Jesse though?) NOTE: My brother is not to be confused with my sisters 'brothers'. Her brothers are not mine, mine is not hers and neither of her brothers or mine are related to each other. Simple as that.
  
• Friends - Friends as always are fun. I have been teased for almost every reason, mostly by my roommate and an old friend from camp. Together my friends from Ambrose have had awesome times as we have played many different games, shared jokes, gone on hikes and just grown together. I also had an awesome time when my Abbotsford friends and a friend from Vancouver Island came to visit me!
• Playing Sports - Every semester we had at least 1 intermural sport. I was involved in both flag-football where I had the joy of scoring my first ever touch down again my profs (yes we get to play our profs in our school - beat that!) and futsal (indoor soccer) where I had fun playing as much as I could and getting some really nice bruises. Also throughout the year it was fun to play futsal, basketball and frisbee with my friends and schoolmates!
• Coffee Times - Waves Coffee House was finished and ready for business in the second semester and I must say that it was an awesome place to go to for a nice cup of white hot chocolate (YES!!) and a nice long talk with my sister, my brother, my friends or just on my own to study.
• Growing - Finally (because there are many other highlights but these cover the majority I suppose) I found that it was fun to see how each of my friends grew in their own ways, how their lives changed, some in big ways some in small. I also found that I grew in many ways too....all but in height that is. Ambrose was a great time of learning more about who God wanted me to be as a student, friend, sister, and as myself. I learned many valuable lessons both in the class room and out of it and am glad that I decided to come here

I have really enjoyed my first year as a University Student, from staying up for all hours, going to a pub for the first times (for cheap chicken wings and coke instead of beer of course), to hanging with friends to going for walks and talking to God. Ambrose has been a place of Love, Laughter and Learning and this summer I am really missing everyone and everything there but am looking forward to the new memories, adventures and lessons that the new school year will bring.

So how was your year? What were your highlights?

I Lost My Wisdom....

...teeth. Well actually I didn't loose them I had them pulled out. It was actually very nice. I must admit I was not a fan of the fact that my wisdom teeth were coming out but because they were starting to get infected where they had not yet surfaced (part of all four had pierced through my gums) and some were actually starting to wear away at my jaw bone.

I used to joke with my friends who would tell me that I would most likely be awake while they pulled my wisdom teeth that I would put up a bit enough fight that they would HAVE to knock me out to pull them out but thankfully I didn't have to go through with it because I was knocked out for the event.

Heading into the office I was asked to lay down. I was given an IV, and due to my experience (ahem, one time) in giving blood the IV was no biggie for me......and then I had a clip on my finger to measure my heart rate and given an oxygen tube.

After sitting in the chair for a while the doctor came in and with a "Goodnight Irene" put a needle (or two) into my IV. I waited a couple minutes and nothing seemed to happen and then next thing I know I was opening the door of my dad's car back at home....Whoa! I totally forgot getting out of the chair...leaving the building, by a different way too so I wouldn't fall down 3 floors worth of stairs or my dad driving me home!

But besides that I am happy to say that now, over 12hrs later I still feel no pain (yay for pain meds!), the freezing is gone and I am looking forward to eating more icecream and pudding tomorrow :D

So do you remember what your wisdom teeth experience was like? If you were put out for it do you remember waking up or anything after it?

Laughter

Since I can't really focus on my New Testament paper for school I thought that I would write a quick blog post.

I have always enjoyed laughing, it seems to make you feel good and happy no matter how you are feeling beforehand. And then there are those people who can make you laugh no matter when or what is going on, which can be annoying if you want to feel angry or sad :P. So far in my life I have only come across two people who can always make me laugh and that is my little sister and my boyfriend.

Also lately it has come to my attention that I am ticklish. Now when I was a young girl i used to be extremely ticklish but as i entered my early teens i trained myself not to be ticklish, to the disappointment of a few. But for some reason I have been becoming increasingly ticklish...why? I do not know. There are times when I can keep my self from laughing and keep my cool but other times I start to head into a shrieking/gasping laugh as I struggle for air.

So who makes you laugh? Are you ticklish?

Caring

I am considered, or at least I consider myself to be a very caring person. I find that (besides spending time with my boyfriend) I get the most happiness out of serving and caring for others. March 14th was pi day and for it two guys and I made 4 pies. Bringing them to the 3rd floor prayer room in res we share them among our friends. I snatched up the job of cutting and dishing out the pie and whipped cream and I think that I enjoyed doing that even more then actually eating the pies.

Although one thing that I have found out about caring is that it sometimes can hurt. Sometimes people don't want you to care for them, or at least not in the way that you care. For example I have recently discovered that one of the ways that I care for people is by worrying about them. And maybe that sounds weird but for me it is a reality, if I care about you, I will worry about you. Yet some people don't like it when I worry about them. For a while I felt really hurt when people didn't like me worrying about them and I didn't know why until I found out that when people rejected my worrying I felt that they were rejecting my love, but this isn't true, at least not always. There are different ways to show I care and I think that I need to focus on those ways instead of worrying about people, it will probably make their lives a bit easier and it will definitely make mine easier.

So how do you show you care?

Fear

One of my favorite 'get-to-know-you' games that I love to play with new friends is a question game. One person asks a random question and both (or everyone in the group) has to answer the question, including the person who asked the questions. The questions range from being very random and funny to very serious. One question that generally always comes up and for me I have been asked several time over the last several months is "What are you afraid of". I never really know what to say about this but for some reason I have been thinking about this alot lately, what am I afraid of.

I am afraid of falling. I love heights and being high up but if I do not feel secure I do not like it. I hate the sensation of falling. For this reason I am not a huge fan of floors that move when you walk on them or that you can see through or stairs with the gaps between them (unless they are really secure like the ones here at my school) because for some reason I get the feeling that at any moment they might break and I might fall.

I am afraid of pain. I do not like to hurt, either physically or emotionally. My whole family will confirm when I say that I have or at least had a low pain tolerance. I remember as a kid getting a paper cut and almost passing out because it hurt a bit, also when I got my ears pierced I almost passed out....at age 15. Thankfully I am getting better at handling pain but I still don't like it.

I am afraid of not being loved, of being alone. This can be a serious downfall for me if I am not careful because, from my past, I know that I would be willing to change myself to be more loved. I am a very affectionate person so it hurts when I know people don't like me. This is something that I am constantly working on and I am getting better on thanks to the knowledge that God will always love me, but I am still afraid of the time when those I love may not love me back, which may be silly because I know that those who truely do love me would never do that, but it still is a fear for I know that if those I love ever no longer love me back, how will I ever be able to believe in love again?

I am afraid of broken promises. I am afraid that when people promise me something, that for some reason something will happen that they will not be able to fulfill their promises, that their promises will be broken. Little promises I am not that concerned about being broken, they still are important but it is the big ones that I am afraid of falling through the cracks. Similarly with the previous paragraph I feel that if these promises that are so important to me are broken, how will I ever be able to believe in them, both the promises and people who make them again?

Besides that I am not scared of things like others. Having a sister who loved the outdoors and creepy crawlies and lived in the country for several years, bugs and snakes and other things don't scare me. I am not afraid of animals or the dark, I don't get claustrophobic, I don't like being in small areas with a bunch of people but I can live with it. I am more afraid of the things that I can't see, I am afraid of the emotional aspect of life. Throughout my life I have been getting better at conquering these fears, but some of them I feel might always be there.

I must forever pray for God to give me strength and power over these fears so that I might not let these fears have power over me.

So what are you afraid of?

Happiness

What is happiness? True happiness? And how can you tell if you are truly happy?

When I was in my early or midteens I went through a period in my life where I tried to make it seem like I was always happy. I would refrain from showing any true emotion other then happiness. I could be angry or sad but you wouldn't be able to tell. I could be having the worst day of my life but if you were to ask me how I was doing I would have just smiled and say that I was doing great and then turn the topic to you and how you were doing and what was new with you. I was slowly adding layers onto my mask and eventually there were so many layers that were so thick that I no longer really knew what true happiness was.

During this time God really made himself known to me. It has been a slow process and even now I will struggle with being open with my emotions. I still occasionally stuggle with being more open with my emotions but it is something that I am working on and that God is helping me with and working on me through others who ask me how I am doing and who truely seem to care about me and how I feel, whether it is good or bad.

Lately I have been feeling really happy and this has caused me to wonder what is happiness? And what makes me happy? I think for me happiness comes from not being stressed, from feeling at peace with myself, with the people around me, and with God.

I find that when I am really happy, I get the giggles easily, I have a ton of energy, I am definately ticklish and I feel like I am on top of the world not matter what happens. And I have been feeling alot of this lately.

So what makes you feel happy and how do you show it?